I asked time to make a deal, If I continue working hard, She gives me the fruits of my labour. I asked time to support me, She said yes, She is for me and has a lot in store. Time gave me one condition. The past I am clinging to is heavy. To move forward with her, I need to let go. She will take … Continue reading Promise With Time
Why do you do what you do? Who are you living for? What are you trying to achieve? When will you be satisfied?
I used to think that my aim in life is to live a happy life, if things did not fit that state I did not do it. I trusted my feelings too much to decide. When I first wrote my vision statement for this blog ‘sfjTheOutcome’ it was ‘live happier deciding better’.
However it didn’t sit well with me and I didn’t belive it completely. Sfj stands for ‘searching for joy’ and joy is achieved through happiness right? I wanted to control my reactions and response to life and I knew wise decisions were the way. But was my ambition in life simply to be happy? Continue reading “All That Matters Is…”
Perfection doesn’t exist and there is no way to achieve it in this life. For a long time I would obsess over getting everything right in order to become perfect. It is such a miserable state to work in, as nothing will ever live up to meet the demands in your head. You will always feel you are not doing enough.
I always wanted to lead by example and be a good role model, because I’ve been working around children. I thought I had to be perfect since their little eyes were watching me and I wanted them to aspire to do great things from observing me. When actually the best way to be a role model is to be real and genuine. Continue reading “Perfect-ish”
On Wednesday at 3pm I decided I was going to break it off with you After thinking about it for an hour I was certain if I didn’t do it today, Somehow I’ll find reasons to stay I had made up my mind that this, us needed to not continue on to Thursday So I reached for my phone to send the text of summoning, … Continue reading Our Midweek
I have dreams about my teeth falling out I wake up startled and feel for them With my hands With my tongue Not sure if I put them back in or they never fell out in the first place See my mind plays tricks on me Tells me things that are not true Could not be possible It’s infuriating my mind is killing me How … Continue reading Falling…
Fear of what is around the corner can keep me from moving, does that happen to you too? I’ll spend my time wondering if it will work out or what people will think of me. This year I managed to push those thoughts aside so far and met was waiting for me. Finding out for yourself is always the best decision, your imagination could be … Continue reading Step and See!
I used to be one of those people who say they hate exercising. This year I didn’t even make fitness goals. A few weeks ago I did 10minutes of cardio and was so tired I wanted to stop, instead I thought I’ll focus on my abs for the rest of the time but I didn’t want to go on the floor. As a result I … Continue reading Try It A Different Way
In the end loving them was not all I wanted. If it was enough I would have been content to be by their side as long as they allowed it. But I wanted them to love me back My love had limits I had to stop lying to myself For it to be alive and lasting, Affection and care must water it. I’m yours forever, … Continue reading Limited Love
Home Is Where Free Food Is 3.1
Dan comes in the front door and heads straight to his room, he is 3 years older than Rain. After putting his things down he walks to the living room, doesn’t say hi to Rain, but instead grabs her phone from her hand, laughs and doesn’t return it.
RAIN: Can you stop doing that, ahh you’re so annoying!
He drops her phone on the table and goes into the kitchen. Rain has to get up to reach for it.
DAN: (Opens the fridge) What are we eating?
RAIN: There is food in the fridge.
As he walks past Rain again to head to his room she jumps a little to hide her phone; he starts to laugh.
Afternoon With Sari 2.1 Sari and Rain are getting hot drinks at the local independent coffee shop. SARI: Large latte please (smilies shyly at the barista) Is it bad that I honestly don’t really care about making friends, like it’s too much of a bother. Sari is making a statement, not really wanting a response from Rain. SARI: Thank you (Takes drink and nods satisfied, … Continue reading Afternoon With Sari