I am much stronger than I think, I am much weaker than I know

 

The turmoil’s of life have taught me that I am much stronger than I think, and much weaker than I know.

I am much weaker than I know. I am a fragile human and sometimes I crumble. It happens when I feel confident, then all of a sudden my insecurities appear before me and I lose the energy. I am much weaker than I know. I don’t like letting people down and there have been points when I will be miserable doing something because I do not one to let someone down. I put myself in emotional bondage because of fear of being disliked. Other times I fear someone will read my thoughts and be shocked about the things I think about, so I avoid intimacy.

I am much weaker than I know. There are things that hurt me that I cannot explain. But in my weakness I am never left alone. God is always watching me, because he already knows how weak I am so pulls up a shoulder for me to lean on.

I am also much stronger than I think I am.

There are somethings that if others went through they would have given up, so I see my strength in moments like that. When I am unsure how to manoeuvre through, when I am not sure how I am going to cope, somehow I make it through. I go past things and look back and think I made it past that.

There is strength within me, far more than I can believe.

Every day that I choose to get up again and try, I show strength. When I am struggling but make time for others I show strength. When I pray for those who wronged me. When I write down my plans for the future even after failure. I am stronger than I think I am. Strength is in the when, it is in the doing, in the moving forward, in the forgiving. Strength is alive and comes when I take action. So I have learnt to take action because I trust strength will follow. My strength in fact comes from God, and knowing that he cares for me and protects me.

I can be because of Him

I am much weaker than I know, but I am also much stronger than I think!

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