I’m trying to find a balance. I understand change can mean take a new step but also mean stay. So I get confused about which I am meant to be following sometimes. I am changing and evolving to fit my current situation.
I become aware of the areas that have lasted their season when things that used to work no longer. I am no longer able to receive or feed from that source till satisfaction. It has become a point of lack because there more room that it cannot reach. The source did not stop producing less, what happened is that the space in which it used to fill changed.
My room has either increased to show growth or a new window was added to show depth in where I am. Through the detail or extension that occurred, a new environment was created. So the tools that fed do not cover the entire space anymore.
I start to feel unsure and anxious because I do not understand what I need in order to become full again. I do not know how long I have to go about with what feels like a deficit.
Change is something I have to deal with as it is one of the only things that is certain about life. I want to be able to accept it and open my heart to the call.