What I think it would be like and what it actually ends up like is very different. There is usually a large gap between the two points of expectation and experience. High expectations can produce an underwhelming experience; simply because your excitement had created something large in your mind and what was infront of you was fine in size, but not to the vastness you … Continue reading The Gap Between Expectations and Experience
The pain from past disappointments and the joy from unexpected resolutions should have taught me to stop being fixated on rigid plans. The most important thing about life and living is that you are aiming at something meaningful while being true and genuine. It is important to have something that makes you happy but that path with bring its frustrations. Knowing it is worth it … Continue reading Young Cake
In this life you dream of, What were you doing? Minute by minute, How did you pass time? If you only saw the peaks, This could be the life. It does not look like the highs now, But what if you gave it a chance. Things could turn around, With consistency and effort. Soon this will be your best life; Don’t wish for it, Get … Continue reading The Best Life
This year I decided to get a little selfish about looking after myself. The step I have taken is to put boundaries in place in my life so I do not crash and burn suddenly. My mental and emotional stability is so important. I am constantly pushing it to the back and never really dealing with my needs which lead me to a slump. I … Continue reading Validation = Needed = Love
Have you ever felt the pressure from watching eyes? Family, friends and even strangers looking at your life; telling you their opinions and advice on what they think it should look like, but mostly just watching to see if you make it. Pressure can come from different sources, it can be good and bad so that’s why I don’t completely hate it, but I don’t … Continue reading If No One Was Looking Would You Still Feel The Pressure?
How do I stop being used? While I was growing up I was informed In order to be loved To be able to receive affection Be agreeable Be willing to do things for others And Even though you are hungry Give more than half And You will receive a whole One day Someday To have a lover stay Be passive … Continue reading How Do I Stop Being Used?
If I have to be someone else to get it Then it’s not worth it. If the way is through pretending and lying I will choose another option. I have lost myself before, Accepting ways I did not believe. Emptiness and darkness consumed me. Selling my soul for status, Losing my peace for money. It cost too much to follow a road that is not … Continue reading I Will Be Me
Comparison is a big issue that knocks me down. I could be feeling great, suddenly I think about someone and what they have then look back at my own and feel low about my situation. When I don’t leave the thought quickly and let it take room in my soul, I get filled with other negative emotions such as bitterness and jealously. I have even … Continue reading Who Are You Measuring Yourself Against?
I’m a little jealous, because you started after me. I’m struggling just to make it everyday. Then you came and did it with ease. It all fit together so quickly that now you have passed me. I desired to grow more than anything. You had some free time, decided on a whim, there was no intention. Yet it worked in your favour. How is it … Continue reading Envious Watching You From The Back
Hey everyone, if you’ve read some of my pervious posts you will find that I have mentioned that last year did not end well for me. ‘Blind-sided and caught off guard’. When I talk about it, I describe it as a sudden attack; but it was not. I was knocked down unexpectedly because I did not look underneath the surface, I had false hope without … Continue reading I Didn’t See It Coming In 2017 and Who I Want To Be In 2018