How Do I Stop Being Used?

How do I stop being used?

While I was growing up

I was informed

In order to be loved

To be able to receive affection

Be agreeable

Be willing to do things for others

 

And

 

Even though you are hungry

Give more than half

 

And

 

You will receive a whole

One day

Someday

 

To have a lover stay

Be passive

Be forgiving and pretend you are

You are not hurt or afflicted

Give them all of you

When they need it

 

And

 

When you need it

When they are not available

It is how it is

 

And

 

For the world

I will be perfect

Organised

Efficient

Gentle

Nice

Funny

I will be whatever it takes

To be accepted

 

And

 

I will be loved

 

But

 

I still don’t fit in

There is no place to be

Everyone wants something

Expects something

Think they are

Entitled

 

So

 

I ask now

How do I stop being used?

 

I have been robbed

Completely

Left for dead

To pick myself up

Move forward

 

But

 

The longing

The desire

 

For

 

Acceptance and love

Will cause me to

Yes, go back to being used

 

Next time after they are done with me

When they can no longer get anything from me

That time I will actually die

Die and not resurrect

 

Because

 

I did not have anything of mine to give more than half of

Therefore I am not worthy to be supplied with a whole

 

So help me

Tell me

How do I stop being used?

My life is on the line

 

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