Falling…

I have dreams about my teeth falling out
I wake up startled and feel for them
With my hands
With my tongue
Not sure if I put them back in or they never fell out in the first place

See my mind plays tricks on me
Tells me things that are not true
Could not be possible
It’s infuriating
my mind is killing me

How am I not cut out
When I haven’t even tried
To be frozen infront of opportunities
Stuck and afraid
I self sabotage because that’s better than failing after trying

Him and I are happy
But I keep thinking he’s going to leave me
Just like the rest did, they all stopped calling and disappeared
So I’m taking out my anger now
Because when he leaves I won’t be able to blame him then
so I blame him now

 

 

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