I have lived in the England since I was 6years old. A few months after me and my family arrived my parents decided to move to London, somewhere that had easy access to the resources we needed. We moved so we could be close to a hospital, schools and a church. The cancer that eventually took my father’s life 6 months after we arrived was … Continue reading I Am Still Here
I let my alter ego lead me for a while. She was everything I was scared to be and was better at doing life than I was. It was glossy and intriguing watching her. In my head I did not agree with everything she did, sometimes I frowned. I did not understand all of her and she began to intimidate me, with the way she … Continue reading Alter Ego & Me
At what point does a missed opportunity fulfil the amount of chances it can give you to make it work. For instance, you start something and give up; you can come back to it meaning that’s one chance there already. So you then take that chance and you go back, but you mess it up again and this time worse than the first. There is … Continue reading Missing Opportunities
If you don’t want to quit then don’t. There is something inside of your begging and pleading for you to hold on, and not walk away yet. With the way things looks it makes sense to go and try else where, you have been at it awhile and poured out everything for it. No one would understand it if you stayed. However, is holding yourself … Continue reading I Don’t Want To Quit… I Want It
It will only be a pathetic end if I never said how I felt. If I like someone I’m screaming it out, Repeating it as many times as I need to. To not experience love because I’m scared, and closing myself of would be a lose. I won’t run from the unpretty side of intimacy, I will see it through all the way. I have … Continue reading Even With All That, I Choose To Love
Why do you do what you do? Who are you living for? What are you trying to achieve? When will you be satisfied?
I used to think that my aim in life is to live a happy life, if things did not fit that state I did not do it. I trusted my feelings too much to decide. When I first wrote my vision statement for this blog ‘sfjTheOutcome’ it was ‘live happier deciding better’.
However it didn’t sit well with me and I didn’t belive it completely. Sfj stands for ‘searching for joy’ and joy is achieved through happiness right? I wanted to control my reactions and response to life and I knew wise decisions were the way. But was my ambition in life simply to be happy? Continue reading “All That Matters Is…”
Perfection doesn’t exist and there is no way to achieve it in this life. For a long time I would obsess over getting everything right in order to become perfect. It is such a miserable state to work in, as nothing will ever live up to meet the demands in your head. You will always feel you are not doing enough.
I always wanted to lead by example and be a good role model, because I’ve been working around children. I thought I had to be perfect since their little eyes were watching me and I wanted them to aspire to do great things from observing me. When actually the best way to be a role model is to be real and genuine. Continue reading “Perfect-ish”
Fear of what is around the corner can keep me from moving, does that happen to you too? I’ll spend my time wondering if it will work out or what people will think of me. This year I managed to push those thoughts aside so far and met was waiting for me. Finding out for yourself is always the best decision, your imagination could be … Continue reading Step and See!
Achieving things is great, it’s a nice reward; what you are doing is paying off. But… Will you keep going without the praise? What about that thing you want again, last time you broke it; with another chance will you give better results? If there was more added could you handle it? Can I trust you? Hey everyone, so these are the questions I’ve been … Continue reading Can I Trust You?
Hey everyone, when my plans don’t fall together in the time frame I expected I start to feel defeated; mainly because I don’t know how long I can keep going. Something must have happened to severely delay or there is a roadblock and I get confused. The first thing I think is that it’s my fault, I didn’t work hard enough and I should have … Continue reading Not Doing Enough, But There Isn’t Anymore I Can Do