What if I spend my whole life trying to recreate that moment again? What if I never manage to make it happen? Hey everyone, I took a selfie as I normally do when I’m feeling myself. This picture that I took of myself was so good, everything was right from the pose to the lighting. Then a fews days later I thought I’d take more … Continue reading How Far Will I Go To Have That Moment Again?
Hey everyone, anyone else always put things off waiting for the right timing? I stopped being a dreamer a while back, it was annoying to get excited for something and never do it. I thought the problem was the fact I was dreaming, when it was I wasn’t taking action. My speech towards ideas, plans and hobbies went a little like “One day I will … Continue reading If Not Today, Then When?
Hey everyone, one thing I am working on is becoming more self-aware; I realised I should start saying “I could do that, but I hope not to” instead of walking around saying never. This is helping me forgive both myself and others when it comes to mistakes and overall having a more positive approach. I went from confidently saying “I could never do that”, to … Continue reading I could do that…but I hope not to
I have lived in the England since I was 6years old. A few months after me and my family arrived my parents decided to move to London, somewhere that had easy access to the resources we needed. We moved so we could be close to a hospital, schools and a church. The cancer that eventually took my father’s life 6 months after we arrived was … Continue reading I Am Still Here
I let my alter ego lead me for a while. She was everything I was scared to be and was better at doing life than I was. It was glossy and intriguing watching her. In my head I did not agree with everything she did, sometimes I frowned. I did not understand all of her and she began to intimidate me, with the way she … Continue reading Alter Ego & Me
At what point does a missed opportunity fulfil the amount of chances it can give you to make it work. For instance, you start something and give up; you can come back to it meaning that’s one chance there already. So you then take that chance and you go back, but you mess it up again and this time worse than the first. There is … Continue reading Missing Opportunities
If you don’t want to quit then don’t. There is something inside of your begging and pleading for you to hold on, and not walk away yet. With the way things looks it makes sense to go and try else where, you have been at it awhile and poured out everything for it. No one would understand it if you stayed. However, is holding yourself … Continue reading I Don’t Want To Quit… I Want It
It will only be a pathetic end if I never said how I felt. If I like someone I’m screaming it out, Repeating it as many times as I need to. To not experience love because I’m scared, and closing myself of would be a lose. I won’t run from the unpretty side of intimacy, I will see it through all the way. I have … Continue reading Even With All That, I Choose To Love
Why do you do what you do? Who are you living for? What are you trying to achieve? When will you be satisfied?
I used to think that my aim in life is to live a happy life, if things did not fit that state I did not do it. I trusted my feelings too much to decide. When I first wrote my vision statement for this blog ‘sfjTheOutcome’ it was ‘live happier deciding better’.
However it didn’t sit well with me and I didn’t belive it completely. Sfj stands for ‘searching for joy’ and joy is achieved through happiness right? I wanted to control my reactions and response to life and I knew wise decisions were the way. But was my ambition in life simply to be happy? Continue reading “All That Matters Is…”
Perfection doesn’t exist and there is no way to achieve it in this life. For a long time I would obsess over getting everything right in order to become perfect. It is such a miserable state to work in, as nothing will ever live up to meet the demands in your head. You will always feel you are not doing enough.
I always wanted to lead by example and be a good role model, because I’ve been working around children. I thought I had to be perfect since their little eyes were watching me and I wanted them to aspire to do great things from observing me. When actually the best way to be a role model is to be real and genuine. Continue reading “Perfect-ish”