Have you ever felt the pressure from watching eyes? Family, friends and even strangers looking at your life; telling you their opinions and advice on what they think it should look like, but mostly just watching to see if you make it. Pressure can come from different sources, it can be good and bad so that’s why I don’t completely hate it, but I don’t … Continue reading If No One Was Looking Would You Still Feel The Pressure?
How do I stop being used? While I was growing up I was informed In order to be loved To be able to receive affection Be agreeable Be willing to do things for others And Even though you are hungry Give more than half And You will receive a whole One day Someday To have a lover stay Be passive … Continue reading How Do I Stop Being Used?
If I have to be someone else to get it then it’s not worth it. If the only way is through pretending and lying I will choose another option. I have lost myself before, accepting ways I did not believe. Emptiness and darkness consumed me. Selling my soul for status, Losing my peace for money. It cost too much to follow a road that is … Continue reading I Will Be Me
Comparison is a big issue that knocks me down. I could be feeling great, suddenly I think about someone and what they have then look back at my own and feel low about my situation. When I don’t leave the thought quickly and let it take room in my soul, I get filled with other negative emotions such as bitterness and jealously. I have even … Continue reading Who Are You Measuring Yourself Against?
I’m a little jealous, because you started after me. I’m struggling just to make it everyday. Then you came and did it with ease. It all fit together so quickly that now you have passed me. I desired to grow more than anything. You had some free time, decided on a whim, there was no intention. Yet it worked in your favour. How is it … Continue reading Envious Watching You From The Back
Hey everyone, if you’ve read some of my pervious posts you will find that I have mentioned that last year did not end well for me. ‘Blind-sided and caught off guard’. When I talk about it, I describe it as a sudden attack; but it was not. I was knocked down unexpectedly because I did not look underneath the surface, I had false hope without … Continue reading I Didn’t See It Coming In 2017 and Who I Want To Be In 2018
What happend to the will power you had yesterday? Was it so fickle that it’s gone after one fall. Stand and remain with your broken soul. Yes I know you’ve been hit before, I’m not saying you are weak. It is going to be alright, if you believe right. The past aside this was a new week. Who told you that you were empty? There … Continue reading Again
You are not on. Autopilot can’t lead, A map of what is infront does not exist. It is a new location; with curvy roads, Hidden potholes and closed lanes. You need to look up. Just walking is not enough; be there in the creation of the route you desire. Destination in mind; head forward, eyes focused. To move to in the right direction, you must … Continue reading Forward
Hey Y’all, Happy New Year! We made it into 2018, woop woop! Today I wanted to talk out my thoughts on New Year’s and where this blog is heading. If you don’t already have something to drink, go grab one and we can pretend we are at a coffee shop having a friendly chat. Welcoming in the New Year is a very exciting … Continue reading Let’s Catch Up Over A Cup Of Your Preferred Beverage
Is it the fireworks? The countdown? Or crowds? What happens when the clock strikes midnight? The mystery of New Year’s Eve; Regardless of current events, We the people gather together; In anticipation and desperation. Screams and shouts; Hugs and kisses; Dancing and alcohol; Welcoming our New Year. In that moment, Nothing happens. No change. It’s just the morning of the next day. Still it carries … Continue reading Expectations